I love to write. I'm one of thse irritating people who would honestly say that it's the thing I love most in the entire world. I remember driving back up to college one lonely Saturday night, depressed and feeling worthless. My boyfriend (now ex) was playing the typical games with my heart and I was confused as all hell. My good old LTD was giving me troubles driving (kept stalling on the highway) and I was scared. However, to cool off I stuck my head out of the driver's sdie window and felt the cool air on my face. It made me smile. Then, I looked up at the stars above my beat-up car and noticed how many you can see out in the cow-town my college is in. Suddenly a poem started coming to me as I developed it my mind moved away from sadness and came 'round to joy. If I could only do one thing, I'd like to spend my life with a notebook, a pen, my lover, and a motorcycle stalking around the country writing about everything I saw. I think I'm probably gong to end up living under a bridge. ;)
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Anyways, this kind of passsion seems unappreciated in this academic setting I inhabit. It's disheartening and makes me want to run away from here as fast as I can. I don't want to be brainwashed into thinking I can't do it. So many people tell me that, but I know that whether I'm a political scientist, a teacher, or a lawyer my heart will always be in writing. It's like a mistress I just cannot stand to leave. There are few things I praise higher than writing, and I just want to be one of her muses. Why? Because she's mine. I hope I don't just feel this way because I'm young. Indeed, I doubt that's the case (I've loved to write all my life), but it's still a frightening thought. I never wanna be the person that settles for a career I don't love. Sure, I'll work a shitty retail job if it only means I have time to write and a home to write in.
Well, I was hoping to make this entry about writing and how like any art people all have their own ideas of what's right and wrong or good and bad. However, I guess the muse lead me somewhere else. =D Perhaps I'll cover that next time.
Take care everyone and keep writing.
"God grant me distraction."