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This is my work from the new Abearica album which will be out soon. I'm doing this as a spoken word piece to the trance-like sounds of Abearica.
The piece is about my fiance Brian who died of a heroin overdose in 1998. His death marked my journey with the spiritual. I still have the scar.

A whisper
That's what it was
Nothing more than one word slipped from the lips of a former lover
One word
To put me into the trance of all trances
one moment to make me throw the bones and read the future
Sticks scratching on dirt floors, drawing my circle
Pounding dust I mark my entry
And with one loud clap dropped the bones and watched them scatter
Taking formation they present themselves in patterns only known by the proverbs they represent
Breathing deep
Inhaling saged air
The rhythm of my heart and breath in sync creating the drum that is my spirit
Closing my eyes I lift the bowl in front of me
And drop three dashes of water on the bone formation
One for each of the rivers in Africa
I sprinkle dirt on top of the water
One for each of the mountains in Siberia
The pounding in my chest quickens
A new song is being born
I lift my hands in gratitude
And sway to the rhythm of the drum
Pounding feet against earth my hands clap

Lost in trance known only to those who have walked before me
I will mark my face in blood
And wear my scars like a shield

One moment
One word being presented to me
To bring me to my knees
Memory has a distinct taste
Kind of like red but softer
And that moment turns into two
Sitting in a room surrounded by dust and bone
One moment surrounded by his sheets
Pulses quicken
Bodies shiver


Bones hit dirt forming past, present, and future
Candles burn
Sage thickens
I know he's gone, went to the other side
One hit, one flutter
And it was done

The Past

Saging his body
Lighting candles
Carrying him to his grave surrounded by leaves
And in that moment he spoke
One whispered word that sent me straight into oblivion
That moment he gave me the key to everything

"In my writing I am acting as a map maker, an explorer of psychic areas, a cosmonaut of inner space, and I see no point in exploring areas that have already been thoroughly surveyed."
William S. Burroughs

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The following comments are for "Shaman"
by KatHarlander

KATHarlander's Published Album! AMAZING you are! Agree with Dagger....
THIS IS AMAZING! So beautiful, coming out soon, how awesome! You beautiful woman and talented glad you are here among us, so glad that Stuart and Dagger know you and invited you here, please come MORE often, you are something really special, your work TELLS me so...oh, YES! This is good. Of course you are published, like Stuart and others, you've got the talent, the REAL deal! Like Dagger, sincerity, talent and beauty all rolled into one! Gorgeous work, loved every second of ready it, I want to hear you in person, or by your album...I MUST have it, let me know where to order it;-)

So deeply moving, powerful, sad, and yet...beyond mere words of spoken to hear you do your thing, because I can tell, you got it, yeah, you got "it"! Have heard many spoken word artists, have heard many in L.A., a few were good, some were better, I got a feeling you are one of the BEST!

Namaste, and blessings to you and yours!

( Posted by: TheRealKarmaTseringLhamo [Member] On: December 8, 2008 )

@ Dagger
Thank you my dear Godbrother. xoxoxo

( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 8, 2008 )

@ Lena
Oh thank you. Yes, the album will be out soon. I will send you a copy when I receive it. I only have one piece on there. I was asked to do more but I just haven't had the time in my schedule to do it. I will be writing you an email very soon. I got caught up in some crazy art business and I'm trying to sort it all out.

With spoken word it's odd. I can get into the studio and do the entire track in just a few tries but I always want to be William S. Burroughs. I sound nothing like him nor does my writing but in my head, oh you know, I'm William S. Burroughs.

( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 8, 2008 )

KATELAN--William S. Burroughs...well, maybe EVEN better?
Hey, there is something to be said for humility if one is spiritual and within a spiritual setting, but performance artists, and such, well, those that say humble, I say, humility is for squids, if you got "it" you got it, and to me you are William S. Burroughs, in fact, maybe even better? Nothing wrong with being a talented woman! Some people get very threatened by women if they are strong or opinionated or more talented than them.... well, too bad, I say to folks like that.

Also, if I like something or someone I let it be known, if I don't I let that be known too...I have a feeling your upcoming album WILL not disappoint me in the least;-)

You are giving me a FREE album, no way! I insist on paying for it, all artists deserve their pay and what is due to them, you have earned yours...not just all talk, you are doing REAL SPOKEN word, and I so LOVE spoken word and spoken word artists...back in L.A. loved going to the Third Street Promenade, in Santa Monica, to Spoken events held at a locally owned alternative bookstore, those were a blast, loved SLAM nights and open mic the most! Once did a poem, in front of an audience that left them gasping...yep, it had "dirty" words in it, quite shocking and powerful, had just been left by my 3rd husband who was an egotistical actor/screenwriter of the first degree, abandoned his son and me, but I wrote a poem about it and even got on TV and got to slam him publicly on a national talk show, long story, tell you about it privately, hehehehe!...
...though I never had any personal ambitions to go beyond participation in the arts, no matter what forms, visual or whatever, or become published much less a spoken word album, that is great....I applaud those like you who do have that kind of ambition and talent. GOOD for YOU! Keep on..keep on!

Me, my ambition, private...tell you about it sometime, but it has nothing to do with money making or fame, yet somehow, money seems to find me these days in the strangest of letting go, giving it up to the universe, good karma comes back ten fold, just like the laws of of witchcraft, shamanism, and all that majick kind of "stuff", you know;-)

Blessings and namaste to your and yours!

( Posted by: TheRealKarmaTseringLhamo [Member] On: December 8, 2008 )

"dust and bone"
Interesting piece. Redemptive. It contains a sweepingly epic lamentation, infused with sensual undertones. I would love to hear a recording of this. Thank you for posting the poem.


( Posted by: Ariana [Member] On: December 9, 2008 )

dust and bone
Thank you so much. I really enjoy reading your work as well as your comments. You are truly a gem on this site. Once I get the word on the recording I will let you know.


( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 14, 2008 )

Dust and bone
Wonderful lament. I have lost people to the creature and having rode it's back myself, the trajedy of leaving loved ones behind must carry on into the other world. Such heartfelt feelings and pure words is amazing. You are a remarkable person to find such art in such grief.

I love the cadence and can only imagine it performed - I'm not sure my tear ducts or my heart could bare it. God bless you and grant you peace. Thank you for this!

( Posted by: jonpenny [Member] On: December 14, 2008 )

Thank you Jon for such a beautiful and heartfelt comment. It was a long time before I could write anything about Brian. I think I got lost in the notion that I was supposed to be the grieving fiance for a very large span of time. In that time I had forgotten the good times, and why I had gotten so far in my own life. Losing a loved on makes you question your own mortality and in that moment you gain a higher purposes. I am so thankful for the time I had with him and I can honestly say I cherish my life more because of him.

Thank you for sharing tidbits of your tale as well.


( Posted by: katharlander [Member] On: December 14, 2008 )

Now that I have time, I'm reading through this week's past posts more closely. I love this line:

"Memory has a distinct taste
Kind of like red but softer"

And now that I think about the possible "taste" of memory, red does seem appropriate.

As a side-note, it reminds me of something Willow said on an episode of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer:"

Willow: It was so strong. I could taste the evil.
Buffy: How does evil taste?
Willow: A little bit chalky.


( Posted by: OchaniLele [Member] On: December 15, 2008 )

I remember when you first read me this piece over the phone, but I had forgotton how powerful it was.

The imagery in this piece is so visceral. And I know it works really well as a spoken word piece with all the *claps* I think my favorite is the part about the rivers in Africa and the mountains in Siberia. And the bones. I like bones. It really has it's own pace and speeds up and slows down on its own.

( Posted by: Mandolin [Member] On: December 16, 2008 )

Shaman Katharlander
I was hear reading what my mom's friend, Stuart,my pre birth blesser of words said about my English class assignment on Medea.

Shaman was read out loud to me the way spoken word is done real serious reminds me of play soliloquy. I like plays. I like spoken word.

Normally I wouldn't of said anything, but I like this a lot more than some things I've heard before. I think it is great! I wanted you to know it was worth stopping what I was doing and listening to it.

( Posted by: TheAlienBreem [Member] On: December 18, 2008 )

Evil tastes chalky
It sure does!

( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 21, 2008 )

mandolin bones
I remember being so scared that i didn't capture it when I read it to you. But now that it's to music. I find it quite pleasant. Now if only I could pronounce proverbs correctly. I always say pro-verbs. Like I'm pro verbs! I just can't say it. ugh.

( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 21, 2008 )

Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read it outloud. It's a very special piece to me and I am very honored that you took a moment to comment. Thank you.

( Posted by: KatHarlander [Member] On: December 21, 2008 )

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