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and to a comfort that's dear.
But sadness is not my goal,
just an affect of life's long toll.
Years ago I followed my lust,
ignored my life;s call, placed in me my trust.
I looked to man for answers and fun
only to find their desire was me - undone.
So to the lord I did flee
And asked Him to reach down and save me.
He did this and it was strong and true
I am sorry but I did find more than you.
And even though my words ask for more,
Begging, pleaing, and continuing to implore,
It's just a way of blowing off steam,
for in my life I know I have been redeemed.
With out his love and without his grace,
I'd still be standing in my own discrace.
So perhaps in my words I led you astray,
it is not for the WORLD I long for this day.
But a continuing process to endure,
my salvation given and periodically reassured.
by he who started something wonderful within,
a promise he would not forget what was given.
and so even though I still kick and scream,
I guess even God's kids have temper tantrums it seems.
And where better to voice my silent cry
to tearfully weep and desperately sigh
then to the lord who did make me,
and on lit dot org where others might feel the same way exactally.
do not be offended and do not be miffed,
for each of us all are searching for life's gift
and if in yourself you did find yours
I wish you happyiness and much healing of sores
but continue will I in dark writing in here
it helps my heart, my mind made clear
and on that day that our worlds do cease
finally standing with the creator of peace,
I will know if my trust was made true
Did I lean on Him or did I follow you..
But the answer is known, just as from the start,
It is Only the Lord who can tend to my heart.
Thanks for the poem and the encouragement.. may you find happiness in all your days here on earth....