Well, well, well. The rug has been pulled out from underneath my feet. I am so shocked. I can't believe that a person I thought was just about the greatest thing in the world did a complete one eighty in personality since the day I met him.
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I mean some would probably say that it shouldn't matter to me at all that a person I was 'dating/seeing' decided to drop me off a cliff (for lack of a better phrase) emotionally (or something like that), and it seems that person doesn't ever want to hear from me again.
But here's the thing, we decided to be friends from then on, like before.
And then I'm told not to contact him ever again. I'm not sure if those were his words or not, but I still would like to continue a friendship. It's not like I'm still in love, how could I love someone like that? I was completely snowed for ten months of my life. I have gotten over it, for the most part. Or perhaps my saying that is a sign that I'm in denial about being over the situation and I'm not smart enough to relise it?
But I know that I have moved on because I am currently persuing someone else. It may go good with him, it may not. I'm not using the words 'I, love, and you', ever again in the same sentence. I am done with falling in love. It is stupid, it isn't a sunset, it isn't a warm happiness. It is a picutre painted on the silver screen, it is an overheated tumor in my chest. Tha's all that it is and I was completely stupid to think I could be in love. I am only fifteen for peat's sake!
It really doesn't bother me that I was robbed because looking back on it, it seems more like a dream than reality. But the proof is there, so I know it wasn't a dream. I can't really say I've moved on, can I?
I'm still bitter about it, bitter about a lot of things to be truthfull. But I can say that I've lost faith in people. I can trust my best friends, but that must be all. If anyone ever comes up to me with words I take as sincere, I will remember this event and throw a cold glass of water in their face and walk off.
There isn't any reason for sincerety in this world, unless you are dumb enough to think there is.
There really isn't anything good in this world, and I should just quit looking for it.
Mad monkey fling poo!