The Part Where I Tell You What I Know
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Hello, my name is Jamie. Or Wanda, or Beth, or Grandma, or whatever else comes to my mind when I sleep without disturbance, and when I am doing my job.
It’s true what they say, sometimes. They say that somebody can be dropped on their own head as a child, and suffer for it at a later instance of life.
That’s what they explained to me; at the very least. I asked them this.
“What is wrong with me?” I said. And they answered.
“You were dropped on your head when you were young.”
I learned I may have been mistaken about what they said, since their voices were scratchy, and they may have been speaking Mexican, or perhaps Japanense.
I told what they said to my closet door, but it told me I wasn’t correct.
It said they spoke nothing. It said I was incorrect, yes. It also told me that if I wanted to find out how to speak nothing, I should forget what I knew, and return to my bedside to learn the nothing, so that I could reinterpret their explanation. I disregarded the closet door. We weren’t speaking…That is for later.
It told me that if I was to follow his instructions, I would be able to understand what it was they told me, without mistaking their dialect.
My lamp post told me that I had simply misheard. They hadn’t told me that I had been dropped my head at all. So my mind returned to them answering me, and they answered, correctly, courtesy of the lamp post directing their speech from nothing to something.
“You were a sloppy reader when you were young,” was what they had really said.
I smiled and nodded, and gave my lamp post a hug. It saved the day, as it usually did.
“Thank you,” I said. The lamp post made a lot more sense than the closet door did.
“You’re welcome,” was the reply. I was happy I had a good friend in my room, because it was never pretty to fall asleep and go to where I went to without it.
Without friends, I probably would have jumped into the furnace, like they told me to, when I had messed up. But that is for later.
I hated the next part of the day, after talking with the lamp post. It went like this:
I would venture outside, but only briefly. My outdoor activity list was restricted, and other people were enemies, as I had been told by them. Only at night could I wander freely, as they spoke to me and organised my thoughts, or disturbed them greatly when they spoke their Mexican, or Japanese, or nothing. I commended their variety of fluent languages.
If they disturbed my thoughts, I would ask the lamp post what it thought. Before we had our fight, I would inquire to the closet door my ideas, and it would always be wrong once the lamp post proved it to be of another answer.
I love the lamp post, dearly, but sometimes it takes its intelligence for granted…Sometimes I wish that I could simply tell it what the answer was. But it is always correct, so I dismissed the idea of telling the lamp post something it didn’t know. It knew everything.
I hugged the lamp post when it gave me right ideas. It would embrace my thanks, but I would always end up elsewhere afterwards. When I hugged it, it let go of me and sent me away, to see him.
It was always hot, where the lamp post sent me, and the creature I talked to always asked me if I wanted more bread. I usually said no, even though it was quite good.
He just laughed. I knew it was a ‘he’ because when speaking with them, they told me that the ‘he’s’ only talked in voices that made my ears jealous, because they sounded ‘deeper,’ as they described it. They told me that deeper meant this, and then I understood:
Deeper means to have a sound frequency of which is lower, and thus is less concentrated on one area.
When he laughed, I asked him what was funny. every day after the lamp post sent me to him. And he laughed because he was sad. He was sad because I had to see him every day, and I had done nothing wrong.
This was to say that visiting him was a punishment, but no unfit activities took place with him, and so I asked why he believed it was sad for me to see him. I had no problem paying my respects to the red man with the set of extra ears. He called them horns, but that was a stupid name. I thought it was stupid because it didn’t ‘flow off the tongue’ as they said all words should.
That’s why I transition between what they call the ‘past tense’ and present tense. I do this because they say it is better to speak this way. They say it is better to do this because that means I am using my ‘language’ as I should be using it. They say it is wrong to address my language in the wrong manner, because then they will get mad at me and I will fail my tasks that I’m told to do by them. I commend their use of the English language effectively.
When they told me things to do that were not part of my job, such as using English in ‘past tense’ and ‘present tense,’ I often felt a strange feeling inside of my organs. I had inquired them why I felt this. They told me that it was intimidation. Intimidation was described as this:
The thought of inferiority, or a negative emotion traced to the lack of knowledge compared to a superior.
They also told me not to question them. They told me not to do this because they gave me my job, which made me unique. I also should not question them because they do not do anything bad. They give me ideas to discuss with the lamp post…We have ‘conversations,’ but that is for later.
They also gave me my home, which I live in. I live in my house, so I have somewhere to ‘recuperate’ when I am not doing my job.
My job is to make other people visit the red man with the extra set ears. My job is to bring them there, so he can punish them, because he says that is what his job is.
I laugh, because he also has a job, like me. I laugh at this because that means that I can use the word ‘job’ as a plural, and thus say ‘jobs’ as though I have two of them that I am aware of. I told this to them, but they did not laugh. They simply changed the ‘topic.’ I inquired what a topic was, because I had heard this word. They told me it was this:
A topic is a summation of paragraphs and ideas that discuss a similar topic. A topic changes when something new is discussed. I am going to change to topic, to make sure this new word is real.
They say that in my life, me having two jobs is impossible. So I simply bring people to visit the red man with the extra set of ears, and let him do his own ‘job,’ or ‘jobs,’ because they say that only the red man with the extra set of ears is allowed to have two jobs. Even they say that their job is to appoint people to do my job…And that although there may be others like me, I am still the only one that does my job.
I inquired the lamp post, because I was told not to question them. I asked him this:
“If I am the only person allowed to have my job, how is it feasible that others like me have my job, also?”
The lamp post was truly stumped, as well. He said this:
“I believe it is safe to say that they know more than we do. And that because we believe something is impossible, does not mean that it is.”
I did not ask anything else about that. I am going to change the topic, for another test.
They didn’t tell me what the jobs of the red man with the extra set of ears are, so I made a guess. I make guesses when there is no evidence or clues leading to an answer…The lamp post only answers me if I have evidence or clues, as they say all things revolve around.
I guessed that his jobs are this:
He offers me bread, and he punishes people. I know that he punishes people, because he told me. However, it is still a guess because I am unaware as to how he does this.
He doesn’t punish me, though, and he says that he should. But then he cries, and says that it wouldn’t be fair, because it’s just my job.
That makes me believe that other people who go to visit him to be punished are punished because they aren’t like me. They don’t do what they are told by, or they simply don’t believe in them, as the lamp post has told me. I asked him how this was possible. I asked him this:
“How is it possible that I have spoken to them, but you say that some people do not believe in them?”
It answered me, it said this:
“They do not believe in them because that means they do not have control, this is why they are bad.”
I am going to talk about my visit with the man with the extra set of ears again, continuing from where I ‘left off.’
Eventually I have some beverages, and occasionally bread, when I dine with him, as I mentioned.
I guess about things, afterwards. I guess, because, every visit I make to the red man with the extra set of ears results in me being sent home after my bread and beverages. He calls each visit ‘a part of another day.’ So this sentence is what I guess about.
I asked him what that meant, because I cannot be sure about my guessing. He said that each time the sky, which he told me was the blue bubble above me, changed and made itself the color of his eyes, which he calls black, and then became the color ‘blue’ again, it meant that it was a new day.
There were new days a lot. He told me the number of them in a year, which was a significantly large accumulation of days, but I forgot it, because I’m supposed to forget things that don’t help me, such as the information about the sum of days in a year.
I’m supposed to forget everything except for this information, as I was instructed by them:
My visits with them, my visits with the red man with the extra set of ears, and the names of the people I bring to visit him.
One ‘day’ I forgot what the name of a young boy was. I told them that the boy had brought his brother to see the red man with the extra set of ears, but they said that the boy wasn’t supposed to do that to his brother. There were two reasons:
The boy wasn’t supposed to do that, because he hadn’t existed in enough days to have a job yet. They also said that the boy was not allowed to bring his brother to see the red man with the extra set of ears because this meant that the boy had done my job.
I knew why that was bad. It was bad because that was my job, and nobody except for the red man with the extra set of ears and I were supposed to do the job of bringing other people to him. Then I remembered that they had said there were others like me. I also remembered that I believed it was impossible, and I remembered the lamp post telling me that we were to leave that impossibility to them. I got mad at myself, because I wasn’t supposed to remember things that weren’t important, as I said. I am going to continue.
Other people, as they told me, were not supposed to want to see me, or the red man with the extra set of ears. I had many names, because I was supposed to make a new one when I visited people for my job. They said my job wasn’t liked amongst the people I saw, and so I should change my name to make sure they didn’t know I was there to take them away, to see the red man with the extra set of ears.
I ‘made my bed,’ each ‘day’ which was strange, because they told me to do what they said. I did this once every time the sky changed colors, and made a new day. The command was strange because the word‘s’ ‘made, make,’ and ‘making,’ all meant:
To create, distribute, or to follow the act of a submission of an idea or thing.
Making my bed, would make no sense, to follow this term. My bed had already been created, distributed through physical construction, and submitted at completion. Therefore, I had no need to make it again.
The lamp post rephrased this as meaning that I was to ‘spread’ the bed sheets, which made my sleeping more comfortable. As he told me this, the closet shook, and was angry.
I knew that the closet was jealous of my relation with the lamp post, because we had so much to talk about. I did not mind the closet door, but sometimes I felt I could do well with its removal. I was told by them that I could not do this. They said it would let the creatures out.
The lamp post told me the story of the creatures, when I asked it about ‘the creatures that other people talked about.’ The lamp post said some people thought that there were mean things inside the closet door. There were things like the red man with the extra set of ears. These ones would not be nice to me, like him. These creatures would not give me bread, or beverages.
I did not open the closet door. The closet door never said anything, but I believe that it wanted me to. I guessed that it wanted me to be hurt at the hands of the bad monsters in the closet, because I like the lamp post more.
I laughed when I thought about it, because the closet door had been very smart once, before I had met it and them. The closet door had told me not to be friends with other people. I found this to be a smart idea.
I believed this, because my job was to bring other people to see the red man with the extra set of ears. I believed that other people were punished by him because they did bad things, and I do not do bad things. I do not do them because they are bad, and I was told that bad meant this:
Bad was the product of an unruly, miscalculated deed, of which could result in negative impact, or self downfall.
This was a good thing to know, because the red man with the extra set of ears doesn’t punish me. He doesn’t punish me because I don’t do bad things. That is why bad things are not right to do. I am changing the topic.
When I have my quiet time, which I have once every time the sky changes, I like to sit down and listen to myself. Sometimes I am my own best listener and speaker, because sometimes the lamp post doesn’t have very many things to say. Because he only speaks when I provide it with evidence or clues as to my ideas or thoughts, or inquiries.
When I have none of these things, I listen to myself. I listen to the things that the closet door has told me. I also listen to the lamp post, the red man with the extra set of ears, and them.
They usually have the most to say when I am listening to myself. This is because when the sky becomes ‘black’ I speak to them for long periods of ‘time.’ They also speak to me. It is a fun and exciting game when I speak, and they do.
It is called a ‘conversation,’ and that is what the lamp post cannot play with me when I do not provide it with evidence, clues, ideas, thoughts, or inquiries. When I listen to myself, it is the time that I am not speaking to anybody else, except for when I listen to what they have said before.
It only happens once a ‘day’ because I have my job, my visits with him, them, and my lamp post. The closet is not on my ‘schedule’ anymore, because it doesn’t treat me like a friend. It tells me not to bring people to see the red man with the extra set of ears. I think this is a mean thing to say to me. It is mean to say because if I do not bring people to see him, I will not have my job anymore, because other people will steal it from me, like the boy did once. If I have no job, I cannot speak with them, and that is not a good thing.
They tell me that the only way to have my job is if I perform it willingly, and during each day. I like speaking to them, because they provide me with evidence, clues, ideas, thoughts, and inquiries so that I can have a ‘conversation’ with the lamp post.
Conversations with the lamp post are fun.
The Next Part, Which you cannot Tell to anybody!
They do not know. In fact, nobody but my thoughts and I know. I am telling this to the paper that addresses whoever may read this, because if I tell anybody else, I will get in trouble, and lose my job.
As I said, I am only supposed to remember the names of the people whom I bring to see the red man with the extra set of ears, my personal encounters with him, and my ‘conversations’ with them. I also remember my conversations with the closet door, and the lamp post. I am not supposed to, but they say it is okay as long as I do not tell the stories to other people.
Other people are bad, a lot of the time. I hope that the people that read this are not bad.
However, this is not the premises of ‘The Next Part, Which you Cannot Tell to Anybody,’
The idea, and thoughts, of this, are to tell whoever may read this, what I did.
I remembered a day. I was not supposed to, because such things are for them to do, but I did anyways. That is why you must not tell anybody, because then I will loose my job, and I will have to talk to the closet door again. I do not like to talk to mean things, and this is why you must not tell anybody, I repeat.
The Day I Remembered
The day I remembered is as this:
Every night, I am supposed to ‘sleep,’ which is what gives me the ‘energy’ to perform my job each day.
I ‘woke’ up, which occurs when my ‘sleep’ is completed. I still feel as though I am ‘ill’ (which is a strange feeling that I cannot understand, even when inquiring the lamp post) when I wake up, but that goes away. I inquired to the lamp post as to why I feel this way when I wake up.
It told me that this happens because I am adjusting to the next day. I cannot make sense of this theory, but I suppose there are things I do not know, since I am ‘learning each day.’
The lamp post told me that this means I am hearing new things.
I will write about them later, but now I continue with my day.
I ‘clothe’ myself, to prevent my body from being harmed, and to stop authority figures from coming to take me away, so they make it that I cannot speak to the lamp post, or the red man with the extra set of ears, or them.
They take people away who do not wear clothes. They do this because it is harmful to other people who are wearing them. I guess that it is because they grow unsure when they see somebody not wearing clothes. I guess that if they are wearing clothes, and another is not wearing them, they also have to guess whether they have chosen the right decision.
They tell me that there is only one right answer for all things. This means that if one person does not wear their clothes, and another does, then one person is wrong. This makes for confusion.
People, who are wrong, are taken away by me, and are punished because of their bad thing. This is why I do not do bad things.
This is why people all should wear clothes. The red man with the extra set of ears tells me that being punished is bad for the people but not for him. People must wear their clothes so that they are not the victim of bad things.
This is understandable, and I did not need to inquire the lamp post about this.
My day continues when I leave my home. My home is one room, and the room is a square unit, composed of wood and brick. It was owned by somebody. But I took them away, and now it is mine.
I often receive gifts from them. I got my clothes and my house from them. I also got my bed, and get my food from them. I only get food from them when I am hungry, and am not able to see the red man with the extra set of ears. Otherwise, I must eat his bread, and drink his beverages. I am reluctant to eat his bread, because often the taste does not agree with my mouth. When things fight inside me, I feel ‘ill.’
I leave my home, but only for a short amount of time, I repeat.
I leave, and they are not there. They are only there when the sky is ‘black.’
I go back into my home after I have seen what is not inside, and I go to the closet door. Every day, there is a new piece of paper on it after I come inside, and there is a new name and face on it, also. I am good with directions, and am told this is strange. The closet door told me this, begrudgingly.
He said it is strange for me to know where things are, because I do not go far from my home on most ‘days.’
I do not argue with the closet door about this. I do not argue because his opinions are unnecessary in my ‘days,’ and I am not supposed to remember what he tells me.
I take the piece of paper with the name and face on it, and I leave my home after sitting on my bed for some amount of ‘time’ of which does not complete a full day.
I wait until the sky is not blue, and not black. I wait until it is another color.
I inquired the lamp post about this. He told me that this color is called ‘grey.’ The name does not make a good sound, and it does not flow off of the tongue. I am told that if I do not like the word ‘grey,’ I can use the word ‘evening.’ It is not a lovely word like the word ‘lovely,’ but it is much better than ‘grey’ of which I will no longer say.
I go out when the sky is ‘evening,’ and I venture far by pushing my feet forward with my ‘muscles’, one before the other. This makes me move, and this is how I leave my house each day. This is also how I bring people to see the red man with the extra set of ears.
I find the person, and I ‘kill’ them, as I am told it is called, by pushing my finger with my ‘muscles’ against a small crescent made of silver. It is called the ‘trigger’ of a weapon that they told me was called a ‘gun.’
I wait until they do not move with their ‘muscles’ and do not speak. I hug the nearest lamp post, and then they are off to visit the red man with the extra set of ears.
I go home. Every day the closet door repeats itself. It is a mean thing to say, and it questions my skills.
It tells me that ‘you are lucky that the authorities did not drag you away today’ and tells me that people often frown upon my job. They say my job is bad.
I only go to bring people to the red man with the extra set of ears if there are no other people with them.
Rarely, if another person is accompanying them, or there are several other people, I have to bring them all to see him. I am not supposed to do this immediately. When people do not leave the person I am supposed to ‘kill,’ that day, I have to do ‘kill’ them all.
I ask them why they make me do this, and I ask if these ‘extra’ people do bad things too. They say that sometimes, any measure must be taken to progress. That is why I do this.
I don’t understand why my job is bad. The lamp post does not know either, and this makes me more confused when the closet door says this…
I’ve learned to ignore the closet door, but I still hear it, even when I try. I attempt to forget what he says, but it seems I cannot. I find that he makes me loose my forgetting abilities.
The lamp post tells me I do not have control over everything…I ask the lamp post if they do. He also says that even they do not. I think he is silly for this idea. But it is better than being confused about the closet door telling me my job is bad. The lamp post tells me that it is not bad, as long as I do not feel ‘sympathy’ when I ‘kill’ them. I do not inquire the lamp post about what sympathy is, because it is a word that is part of ‘emotion,’ and I am told to avoid inquiring about emotions by them.
Sometimes I do, though, and you must not tell them that I said this…
I hug the lamp post once I am home, and I feel the heat come back to me. I am in the company of the red man with the extra set of ears, and I sit at his table. He speaks to me, also.
“Hello,” he says. He does not say my name, because I have many. I have many because I must change them, and so he does not know what my new name is when I visit him. I reply, and we have a ‘conversation.’
“Hello,” I reply.
“Are you well?”
“The lamp post says you are well.”
“Then I am well.”
“Would you like some bread?”
“Would you like a beverage?”
I always said yes to the beverages, because they felt good.
“Would you like some bread?”
Then he would cry. He would say this:
“It is sad that you must come here, as you do not deserve to be. I feel sorrow that you must visit here every day, and you have done nothing but obey the Grasshopper Alarm.”
The Grasshopper Alarm is the collaboration of the grasshoppers talking to me. The Grasshopper Alarm is them, but I do not call it this because they find it insulting to be referred to as Grasshoppers. They say it is insulting because that is the name given to the by other people who do bad things. People do bad things, and I am told that the bad things I ‘kill’ them for, is saying the word Grasshopper without commenting on their superior intelligence. It is also for killing them, or ignoring them. I am told that I am very smart because I obey them. I feel a warm ‘emotion’ in my stomach when they say this.
I find this a suiting reason for them to be punished.
I reply to the red man with the extra set of ears.
“It is a pleasure to be in your company,” I say. I say this to counteract his sadness but he sobs. He tells me this, next:
“I feel sorrow for the fact that you are smart and kind enough to obey them, but must do their duties in promoting their esteem, by coming here to see me. I feel sorrow for the idea that you must inquire the lamp post, and have not interacted with the people that do not do bad things.”
I laugh, and I tell him that all other people I have met do bad things, except for me. I am not to interact with others. That is my duty.
I leave him, and I go home, to chat with them, and inquire the lamp post when I have accumulated evidence, clues, ideas, thoughts, and inquiries for him. I go sleep next.
I do my job the next time there is a day. And sleep when there is a ‘night.’
That is how I am.
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