Why am I here?
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This is where they told me to wait.
Who stole my shoes?
The rats chewed off my feet.
I've often wondered if I was screwed up, or if the world was. I'd love to say I've found an answer but I think an third alternative has arrived : BOTH.
It started with a call to EKU about their New Student Days week. I needed to find out exactly which days and events were mandatory for me to attend. They answer: all. I return with : WORK.
Now as amazing as it may sound, an 18 year old girl working I know...but how it was as if it was something this lady had never heard of. Like if you were 18, you HAD to be in school or live with your parents, Because we all know : Parents are made of money just like that tree in the back yard.
Guess what folks...I have a parking lot in my back yard. Hell..I don't have a yard at ALL. Now with the lady's amazement that *I* could have a job that confronts with the WONDERFUL (yet stupid) events Eastern Kentucky University holds for the incomming freashman; I explain to her that I live independantly and require a job to support myself, and my mom.
And yet...this intellegent woman (of that I'm sure) still has that lingering question: "..well do you intend to keep your job this fall with school?"
Honestly I almost fell into the floor at that. This is all true. It was ALL I could to not to ask her if she was going to foot the bill for me and mom. If she was going to put new tires on my car...buy me cds...food, rent, cable, internet, insurance, new books, new clothes, spending money..ect. But no...no I did not ask, but I did laugh for almost two days after this phone conversation.
It was the start of the 'I can't believe these people are allowed to live' weeks.
It continued. Oh yes...it continued.
There is a person I know, and where from I will not state, but I know this person. She has a personality that I personally hate. I hate VERY few things, truely hate..but this is one of those things. When someone knows SO much that they just run OVER everyone else, then I get pissed. WhY? Because usually they are not right. Now I can handle the know-it-all on most days. But this is an every time I see them event. I'm having a sort of conversation with this person and she decides to tell me that I will not be able to handle a mere 13 hours of classes and work as well. That I should drop down. This is comming from a person who quit college because 'it was too hard'. Argues this point with me until I started to defend myself. This was just the beginning. Later about a week or so, she decides to interrupt almost every conversation I have with ANYONE about ANYTHING. Because she knows so much more than I do; and she's only a few months older.
Alias...This is not the end of the list.
Again the people upstairs are on my list for the sheer fact that I can't tell if they have moved away...or if the noise has just became something normal to me.
BILL COLLECTORS- Don't EVEN get me started on them. I have respect for most, they have a job that gets them lied to and yelled at 24-7. But the one that called me last got more than that, she got an attitude check and QUICK. I don't like being told I'm refusing something when I've stated over and over again that I am NOT.
See...I have a paranoia of paying things over the internet or the phone. I do NOT like giving out my bank account number to anyone (not that I usually keep money in it..add an angxity disorder to that and well..) Yet, people don't seem to understand that sometimes..people like to take breaks and actually pay their bills in person or via mail. Yet again a concept this world doesn't seem to understand.
Cab Drivers that hit on you is another on the list.
Cab Drivers that take you the extra super long way to work and then act like it was your fault is another.
And one thing that I'll never quite come to terms with:
People that think I like them..that I don't. This includes guys that think that I'm all hot over them, and people I went to highschool with who think that we were just the best of friends and that they just HAVE to take up 20 minutes of my time and 'catch-up' everytime they see me.
A lot of people that know me know, know that I am really NOT a people person; that I'm really not into all the goodie friendship crap in spite of myself. I like the goodie friendship crap with people I can stand, that I consider friends; but the others...NO WAY IN HELL.
I wish that just half of the world would see that. Grasp that little sun ray of knowledge and get over it.
I like to be by myself, until I'm ready to be around others. If I like you in a romantic way..by crackies...I reckon I'll let you know.
...my god...I AM from Kentucky...
Anyway...This has taken up enough room. Sorry about the rant, but it's just one of those times.
Thanks for the suport and good/bad words.
until next time:
why am I here?
To piss everyone I can off
who stole my shoes?
the guy I framed
If I did it...I didn't mean to.
If I hurt you...I didn't mean to.
If I left you...I didn't mean to.
If I scared you...I didn't mean to.
If I loved you...I didn't mean to.