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THE TIGRESS by Mila Strictzer

I should have graduated high school at 18, but I was held back because I missed two years in a mental hospital. So, I was allowed to finish up in vocational school, in agriculture mechanics.
Our small class studied a textbook for several weeks before moving into the shop. There was an old tractor engine in the back of the shop, hoisted up by wire chains, just hanging there, above the shop floor.
The first thing we learned was how to operate each type of welder. A mig welder feeds a thin line of metal at a steady rate and I could not control that rate, so I did not like it much. Brazing produces a bond of copper. An Oxy-acetylene blowtorch breaks things apart. Arc welding seemed to be the best; I only had to ease the white rod along in small, concentric circles. After cooling, a metal bead appeared, shaped like pancakes piled halfway on top of each other in a row. There is no middle ground with arc welding. A bead is right or ruined, possibly along with the entire structure.
So I cut some pieces of metal with a hacksaw and welded them back together in a frame. I drilled holes and bolted the structure in place. Then I hoisted the engine with a lift and set it in the frame.
I sand-blasted the engine’s exterior to remove the old paint and rust. I removed the head bolts. The head gasket had rotted so bad, it sealed like glue to the block. I had to ram several long screwdrivers into the gap with a rubber mallet to break it free.
Once I got the head off, I glass-beaded it, which made its surface shiny steel again. I took out the valves, which were caked with rust and ground them down and then polished them on the electric wire brush. I worked on the pistons and rings, springs and cams, transmission, linkage, and tested things like the altimeter. I checked the timing with a timing light, took out the points, and set them. I replaced the spark plugs, greased a cork gasket I had cut myself, and replaced the head.
One day, toward the end of the semester, as I set the pistons to top dead center, the teacher came over and knelt down beside my engine. He grimaced at me and said, “What’s the name of this thing?”
“I don’t know.”
The teacher studied my engine for a moment. He said, “How about…the Tigress?”
“Are you going to start it?”
“Start it?”
“That is generally what you do with engines. You start them.”
“Oh,” I said. Something held me back. How had this tractor engine come to be? What men, working in an assembly line, had put its pieces together? Who had first bought it to use on his fields? I saw that person working on his farm, but the closer I got to the owner of my engine, the further he slipped away from me.
Had the owner of my engine fought in WWI? Did he have to leave his wife, maybe before they had children, to go fight in France? He might have even died as he fell in a muddy bunker from a 7.62mm bullet to the brain, as his brigade charged the enemy lines along those barren fields lined with barbed wire.
At that instant, his wife would have no idea. Her husband had been gone over a year, even if he was a soldier fighting for his country in a war in a foreign land. Perhaps at the moment he died, she had her legs wide open, and some man was giving her all the love she needed. No one would know; not her husband, not his family, no one. It was just that simple. Too bad if she met her lover at work, he was nice. She had to work and make a living, too. What if there was a child? Cross that bridge when we get there. Probably no child, though.
His body would have come home to the states in a casket covered with an American flag and be buried in Arlington, Virginia. His wife, father, and mother would make the journey, via train, to the National Cemetery, take in the sights in Washington, D.C. for a couple of days, as they thought of their son, and then go to his funeral.
A black horse would have pulled his casket, resting in the back of a black wagon with big, wooden wheels as a soldier standing in the distance played taps from a shiny brass trumpet. The sergeant would have placed a folded flag in the hands of his mother, not his wife; all to say thanks from a country. His widowed wife might cry, because all women cry sometimes, wipe her tears away, and be okay. She had someone to help her with it all now.
There would be thousands like that, whose names are forever engraved in town square monuments, all across America.
“I don’t know how to start it.”
“You have to crank it around, like an old airplane. There should be a hand-crank over there where the engine was.”
So I went to the back of the shop, dug around in the drawers for a few minutes, and produced the hand-crank.
The next day, when I came to class, the whole class was gathered around my engine. I took the hand-crank from my backpack and eased it into the shaft’s teeth. I paused for a split-second, and then pushed down hard and the rod began to slowly turn around.
Then the hand-crank ground to a near-stop. The past was just too painful and too beautiful and I was unsure if I could let go. But I still fought on, and then, to my delight, the engine started to do my bidding. I turned around and around as fast as I could, until the hand-crank flew out of its teeth, nearly hitting me as it slid out across the concrete floor of the machine shop to the other side of the room, and hit the wall with a thud.
“Boom! Boom! Ra-Boom!”
The Tigress’ roar was so loud that the students and teacher covered their ears. I didn’t cover my ears because I was in awe. The big pistons whirled around and the Tigress’ deep bellows filled my chest. Thick, dark smog poured out the exhaust pipe. Sparks appeared like slow-motion trails from fireworks and, at one point, a long flame shot out. The Tigress’ roar was so purifying that it seemed magical. I felt the presence of its powerful engine humming and my past, and the engine’s past as well, all seemed to come into focus. I felt connected to my machine. I had created an identity.
The teacher had to flip the fuel switch off and The Tigress coughed to a stop. I stood speechless.
I graduated high school. I never started the Tigress again. I spent the rest of the year in the classroom leaning down in my chair and daydreaming, not really following along any of the words in the textbook.

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The following comments are for "The Tigress"
by milastrictzer

Great word choice but what was your reason for writing this?
You have quite a knack for the description of everyday items, really giving life to the engine as a beast, and to the soldier's wife, but The story seemed to lack a real reason. You give life to the Tigress but after one start you never again revive her, so what part did it matter. Also you move on with your life and while it was obviously a memorable event in your life, it doesn't seem to appear to be important to you by the stories context.

( Posted by: Credendo [Member] On: July 29, 2002 )

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