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If I click this mouse once more
Iím sure the site will open.
Maybe itís just being updated
So we will finally know
When he will come home.

Darbi will bake a cammo-humvee
With candles and welcome back.
I still havenít called about helium.
Posters and snippets lie scattered
On the carpet in my office.

His scrapbookís not completed
But I shuffle photos and clippings.
My thoughts are quite disjointed --
Is the waiting just too much today
Or am I getting high on spray glue?

I try to focus on the here and now
With my baby -- my soldier -- enroute,
But Iím so easily distracted
By the postings of the antiís
Who steal the value from his moment.

I do not have that magic today --
The poetry in my bones,
The desire to make it palatable
Or interesting to readerÖ
Just this incessant clicking of my mouse.

Here, I share, with stark honesty, my life.

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The following comments are for "I Do Not Have that Magic"
by FeliciaStone

Ah! yes you do - see above. h.

( Posted by: Huni [Member] On: March 23, 2005 )

Coming home
To hell with the anti's. I'll stand side by side with you and welcome him home like the hero he is.

( Posted by: williamhill [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Felicia: Godspeed
Felicia: Godspeed to your Son. More pray for him than he could ever imagine.


( Posted by: Bobby7L [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

I agree with Huni. These thoughts of your's touched my heart. Hope he's safely soon back with you, and until then, protected by angels-


( Posted by: emaks [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Huni - thanks
I needed that just when I read it.

I appreciate you.


( Posted by: feliciastone [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

William - the antis

Thank you so much for being supportive at what is a difficult time for me.

I really wish we could all put down our weapons and sit around singing coumbaya (I don't even know how to spell it), believing it will bring us to a better place. But, realistically, we are not there yet. I don't know what to do about it or how to bring it about.

when I was interviewed for the paper (after my son had been pulled from a convoy before the lead humvee of that convoy was bombed and a soldier killed - a friend of my son's), I was asked if the anti-war demonstrators bothered me. I said, "No, I think the demonstrations are important. They make us look at what we are doing, why we are doing it, and why we are working toward peace..."

This is my belief.

But, we are part of a big circle. The human condition... part of something bigger, doing what we do as we were seemingly designed. We are animals? Bees, ants, wolves... without greed and propaganda, all have soldiers. Their basic instinct is to protect their own without hesitation.

I understand the frustration of the anti's. You cannot look at war without being revolted (I hope)and it is angering to see the political machinery misuse and abuse the military for their own political gain.

Again, thanks for reading and posting, William.


( Posted by: feliciastone [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Bobby - More pray
I know you are right.

He called last night. Godwilling, he will be home for Easter.



( Posted by: feliciastone [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Liz - protected by angels
Thank you for your beautiful comments and encouragement.

Yes, it looks like it might be very soon.



( Posted by: feliciastone [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Demeter - well said

I really liked how you expressed these thoughts so well in your comment. I agree with every word in regard to war politics. Thank you for posting this message.

Thank you as well for complimenting my writing style. I value your opinion as one of the great writers/thinkers in this forum.

I also enjoy your objectivity and your Moxie.



( Posted by: Feliciastone [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Home-coming of the heart
William's right, to hell with the anti's. Don't let them dampen what will be a very special moment between you, your son and your entire family.


( Posted by: Emlyn [Member] On: March 24, 2005 )

Thank you Emlyn,

Hopefully I will hear from him today.

He is in New York now, but we still may not see him for quite a while because he tore a ligament in his back in Iraq and they want to treat it at Ft. Drum.

He's hoping that he will be allowed a pass to come home for Easter before going back to NY for treatment.

He's on a waiting list of 100 guys before they do a thorough exam and start therapy - what have you. He thinks it will be two to three weeks before he is seen.

I'm usually a very laid-back, roll-with-the-punches kind of person, but this waiting these last few weeks has been very frustrating. Lack of info and bad info have made it impossible to plan for his return.

Thanks for reading and commenting.


( Posted by: feliciastone [Member] On: March 25, 2005 )

I came back and read all comments here. Some very thoughtful people have stopped by. I guess I am an "anti" if we must go there. But that has never meant that I don't appreciate the efforts of those who put there lives on the line. I question the 'why' for which they were asked, not their integrity.
I hope this holiday brings you family, friends and peace.
Please send a blessing to my nephew who will spend his first Easter away- in Baghdad. If interested check my poem "Johnny's Going to Baghdad".
I thank the bloody stars my kids are too young.


( Posted by: emaks [Member] On: March 25, 2005 )

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