Never in my whole life had I felt this numb, my whole body was just completely paralazed, like the way your mouth feels after a filling from the dentist. That kind of numb.
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I tried to open my eyes, but it was impossible, as well as the numbness, my eyelids were heavy, like in a deep sleep, so I focused on trying to wake up. But I was already awake, so why was I numb?
A bleeping sound interrupted my thoughts, it was my clock-radio, but it sounded as if it was far away or covered with something like a pillow. I had set the alarm to switch itself off after four minutes.
As I waited for the numbness to fade and the alarm to go off, I attempted to remember what had happened to cause my body to go numb, all I could remember was going to sleep, that was all, but I started to remember other things, like when I lost my virginity, that had been over a year ago.
I had been drunk as usual, and I bumped into an old academy boyfriend and he invited me out for a drink, during the night we found out that we were very much in love with each other like before and we got closer together with a bottle of vodka and a shower afterwards, together that is. It got a little steamy after that and we got engaged eight months later, we were to marry in four months time, just in time for Christmas.
I tried to smile, but it was impossible, I was still numb. I began to feel light this time, like I was floating on the Dead Sea, I had gone there when I was fourteen with my parents, I had loved it there and whenever I thought of the place, I wamted to be fourteen again and floating on the Dead Sea without a care in the world. Something flashed in front of my eyes, but my eyes were closed.
I tried again to open them, but to no avail. Something else flashed in front of my eyes again and I forced them to open and saw the sun and the sky, a blue cloudless sky and I sat up in water and looked around and recognised everything.
I knew where I was and where I belonged. I was in my own heaven, I was at the Dead Sea and I was fourteen again. I knew why my body had been so numb and why I had started to feel light and I lay back onto the ocean and the bleeping stopped forever.